It was a building in use: Used to be medical school 1 year back. This building was where my sisters studied, for their 3 years Bio-medicine.
The sun sets: Taken during I came back home this evening. The sky was so attractive. It was rather like the sun rising up in the morning.
I am always feeling, 'am I belong to be a chinese?'. Chinese thoughts are too conservative. And nothing about chinese really attract me. Of course this is nothing relevant to the tradition and the lifestyle of chinese; they are just great. I am very ashamed of myself for telling this. I am a chinese but I am not proud to be one. And I am pissed by chineses' thinking sometimes. Nevertheless, I am very much fond to be like a japanese. What is so attractive about them I don't know. Just that.. well things just happen to be so. Perhaps this is the negative feeling for being a Malaysian. I don't feel like anyone here in Malaysia. A malaysian am I? Ha..
Many people say they'd rather not come over peninsular Malaysia 'cus the people here are very much different. All races seem to isolate themselves to build any bone with other races. I read a threat in the forum saying that people from East Malaysia like the Malays there but they really dislike the Malays of the West. And indeed, after I came here for more or less 3 years, I understand-- People here are different. What can I do alone. I really wish someday all nations could really live peacefully under one roof. And I do take the first step to approach them, but sometimes, just that it is not as smooth as I thought.
Migrating to other countries really sounds fantastic for me. But where should I land my feet. China? S'pore? Japan?
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