Apr 29, SUN, 10:37PM

せいかつはなんか詰まらなくなったね

どうする

僕はまだ働きの気持ちがあるんだ

何かしたくてできないので、胸が無力だ

勉強は何のことと思う？実は本当に必要がないだろう

さあ

どこへも逃げ行きたくてそこに住みたいね。。

Apr 28, SAT, 12:34AM

Oh well, I am so disappointed of meself.. I always have this grudge over things I do/did. I am not persistent (oh man) this is what I hate the most about myself. Why couldn't I.. couldn't I.. at least have some.. well spend a considerable amount of time at least for my writing about my life?? *sigh*

I'd better still sum up what have I done these past few weeks. Firstly my trouble ticket system is running (this cheers me up a lotz~~) and secondly, mom has come back home today from Russia. And, err.. let me think of some important event. Umm.. I have just bought a pair of slippers with RM16, I have finished the final lectures of my entire life (perhaps), and I have finally took my last paper for Japanese. Will this be the end of my jap-learning life? Hope it won't.

What I wanna utter (ha. finally get to the point) is that everyone does go through this phase of life, when they have to part books, classes and start seeking for a job, and planning for the future. I am in a trauma which I cannot believe I am actually coming to 24 and have to follow what everybody does. I still cannot accept the fact that I am no longer far from earning for my life and gonna start giving support back to family. This is harsh for a person like me, who is always thinking about entertainment, where to travel (but in the end I go nowhere) or being headache just because of thinking to have how many matches of dota in a day and... urghhhhh!! I hate meself..

Can everything be the way it was? Going to Fotang joking with the kids, going to cyber cafe once in a while, laying back in mom's office doing.. nothing in particular, sleep till 10am every morning.. Its scary now I realise things might vanish all of a sudden when I open my eyes in a new day. My brain is teared to pieces...

Anyone drop by here give me some direction. I am lost, getting straight to the point. *sigh*

XENRI Buffet-- MAR 25:: VENUE: XENRI Nihon Ryourikan

The Private Room: Since we booked for 8 persons. *Shoes off pls~~













Tempura: These are the fried food- Shrimps, carrot, mushrooms.













Oysters and Octopus: Raw and cooked; weird and tasty; Respectively.













Barbecued Food: Fish and beef!! Hot, tasty and irresistable!! *Yum yum~

Apr 4, Wed, 22:57PM

People's hates and likes: What actually are dangling on the tree? YUP! Durian it is!

Finally the work has started. It is getting a bit late though but THANK GOD it is really starting!

Day by day it goes, second by second the clock ticks. I can't help to stop the time; I can't help to stop from aging; nor I can't help to remain kid forever. I am gonna be a man soon. I am gonna work very soon from now. I am gonna leave my parents （perhaps). I am gonna marry (I wonder..）. I am gonna.. I am gonna.. get back to the ground, have my eyes rubbed, have my chest up-hold, have my heart readied for what is lying ahead. For, we know not what's next to come.


I always dream for things to be in my favor. But! I should really get back to reality. Things cannot be changed; facts cannot be twisted; destiny cannot be fought. If only things can follow my way, IT would only be in my dreams.. How funny and how realistic! *sigh*

Apr 2, MON, 1:05AM

A distorted vision: My heart is just like this this moment. How ironic..


Today.. sucks!! I am so depressed now after I decided the fact. I hate myself really!

"Life is not a choice, but a journey."

And now it really seems to me like that. I hope I can be freed, in anyway.. I am tired, so so so.. tired..