Oh well, I am so disappointed of meself.. I always have this grudge over things I do/did. I am not persistent (oh man) this is what I hate the most about myself. Why couldn't I.. couldn't I.. at least have some.. well spend a considerable amount of time at least for my writing about my life?? *sigh*
I'd better still sum up what have I done these past few weeks. Firstly my trouble ticket system is running (this cheers me up a lotz~~) and secondly, mom has come back home today from Russia. And, err.. let me think of some important event. Umm.. I have just bought a pair of slippers with RM16, I have finished the final lectures of my entire life (perhaps), and I have finally took my last paper for Japanese. Will this be the end of my jap-learning life? Hope it won't.
What I wanna utter (ha. finally get to the point) is that everyone does go through this phase of life, when they have to part books, classes and start seeking for a job, and planning for the future. I am in a trauma which I cannot believe I am actually coming to 24 and have to follow what everybody does. I still cannot accept the fact that I am no longer far from earning for my life and gonna start giving support back to family. This is harsh for a person like me, who is always thinking about entertainment, where to travel (but in the end I go nowhere) or being headache just because of thinking to have how many matches of dota in a day and... urghhhhh!! I hate meself..
Can everything be the way it was? Going to Fotang joking with the kids, going to cyber cafe once in a while, laying back in mom's office doing.. nothing in particular, sleep till 10am every morning.. Its scary now I realise things might vanish all of a sudden when I open my eyes in a new day. My brain is teared to pieces...
Anyone drop by here give me some direction. I am lost, getting straight to the point. *sigh*
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