2 days to the X'mas day. I am lonely for the 24th year of X'mas. I wonder would I have my whole life being alone?
Everyday thinking of the same problem, thinking the same person, encountering the same situation, leading the same routine and.. having the same feeling. I can barely stand the feeling anymore.
Why couldn't I cry for once? Perhaps with a loud cry I could release the pain and heart-breaking sensation in me. I met with 2 friends yesterday when I went for the movie. One is a secondary's classmate Goh and the other is my Form 6 buddy Wong. I noticed, that the older I get, the more hypocritic I have become. I am not myself I used to be anymore. I have changed so much, due to life changes, the environment, the people and the experience. I thought I was a wise person, a person who has great wisdom BUT in fact! I am just an idiot.
I am being alone is the room. For how many nights I have dreamed to have a partner beside me. Don't think those dirties, its a life-time partner I am talking about. The older people get, the more afraid they will get. They will start to find for a partner (if not lover). I really hate to mention about "lover"!
It is ironic, but I need people to love.
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