Today went to meet up with a client. Nothing special about the client, he is a man at his 50's. He is nice and sincere, and not to mention, quite talkative. He is the boss of that big aluminum company. Actually what I am trying to say is just, I learned things for the first time I am here in foreign country. I was able to be on the spot to see how people talk and how to present ideas. It's not hard I will say it, but you need experience.
Ah.. Hanashi ga owarimasu ka? Hontou ni zannen ne.
Sabishii na kudaranai na. Watashi no omae wa doko iru no? Bakasan..
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Monday, February 25, 2008
25 FEB, MON, 7:40PM
I am feeling so disgusting today.. It seems that there really isn't any mean for me to stay any longer in this office. I am very tired. I am disappointed, angry, restless and very ... Speechless. It sucks.. the sensation. Can I go?
I hope nothing big happens tomorrow.
I hope nothing big happens tomorrow.
Sunday, February 24, 2008
24 FEB, SUN, 2:25PM
My japanese has definitely deteriorated a lot since last year. I am so sad. I tried to use Japanese to write today's feeling and story but somehow, I couldn't even get into the second sentence. What the heck.. AH!!!!!
Life has been meaningless in foreign land. Now that I realise its so good to be in my room. I love my bed the most but ironically, it seems that I like my bed in foreign land more.. Umm.. Maybe I lost too many pillow stuff on my queen bed in my room and that makes me very unfamiliar with it.
Went for a barber just now. Had my hair cut and its a new look (though not really XD), its not bad. I am having contradiction in life now, but it seems always. AHHHHHHH!!! I don't know what to write in here.. I have too many problems till I have the urge to compile them into a novel but, just pointless. My personal dairy have somehow reach the 20th page.
Sometimes I think, like writing blog, writing dairy, what is the purpose? Is it that within me, I actually hope those people in my story would eventually read them up? I dunno. So lost sometimes. Just now I went for the barber, when she cut my hair, why did I have the nervous feeling in me? Why? What is happening? I am too tired to think of it. Last night after I received a call from a close person, why did I feel so uneasy? Why am I becoming into someone so.. ruthless and so unfriendly. My heart is blinded. I hate it.
Life has been meaningless in foreign land. Now that I realise its so good to be in my room. I love my bed the most but ironically, it seems that I like my bed in foreign land more.. Umm.. Maybe I lost too many pillow stuff on my queen bed in my room and that makes me very unfamiliar with it.
Went for a barber just now. Had my hair cut and its a new look (though not really XD), its not bad. I am having contradiction in life now, but it seems always. AHHHHHHH!!! I don't know what to write in here.. I have too many problems till I have the urge to compile them into a novel but, just pointless. My personal dairy have somehow reach the 20th page.
Sometimes I think, like writing blog, writing dairy, what is the purpose? Is it that within me, I actually hope those people in my story would eventually read them up? I dunno. So lost sometimes. Just now I went for the barber, when she cut my hair, why did I have the nervous feeling in me? Why? What is happening? I am too tired to think of it. Last night after I received a call from a close person, why did I feel so uneasy? Why am I becoming into someone so.. ruthless and so unfriendly. My heart is blinded. I hate it.
24 FEB, SUN, 12:58AM
如果他被给于机会，他会。。可是由于事实的残酷，他能做的就只有那么多。
古巨基的《喜欢》，好喜欢。
里面的歌词是我的心底话，里面的背景，全是我理想的世界。
听着听着，好温馨，听后感则是悲伤得想哭。我已无泪了，就是再伤心，也只能以冷酷的表情代表，大概，冷酷已变成我哭泣的方式了。。
此时此刻，更想听到你的声音。
如果可以，希望能就此忘记你。
无可奈何，两者都不可能发生。
古巨基的《喜欢》，好喜欢。
里面的歌词是我的心底话，里面的背景，全是我理想的世界。
听着听着，好温馨，听后感则是悲伤得想哭。我已无泪了，就是再伤心，也只能以冷酷的表情代表，大概，冷酷已变成我哭泣的方式了。。
此时此刻，更想听到你的声音。
如果可以，希望能就此忘记你。
无可奈何，两者都不可能发生。
Saturday, February 23, 2008
23 FEB, SAT, 12:06PM
Woke up at 10, and going out now at 12PM.
Yesterday I went for a movie its the "Jumper" starred by Star Wars actor. Overally, its very nice, for me. I enjoyed the movie and I was so glad that I went for that. Its about the story of a boy, who had the ability to "jump" (to teleport in other word) to wherever he had seen the place. He realised his power at 15 and used it to make a fortune by stealing money from the bank until one day, he met with a person who came to kill him, or in particular, all of the jumpers. This is a movie about how he evaded the paladins (those who were aftering him) and went on with his life.
That's all for now. Going out..
Yesterday I went for a movie its the "Jumper" starred by Star Wars actor. Overally, its very nice, for me. I enjoyed the movie and I was so glad that I went for that. Its about the story of a boy, who had the ability to "jump" (to teleport in other word) to wherever he had seen the place. He realised his power at 15 and used it to make a fortune by stealing money from the bank until one day, he met with a person who came to kill him, or in particular, all of the jumpers. This is a movie about how he evaded the paladins (those who were aftering him) and went on with his life.
That's all for now. Going out..
Friday, February 22, 2008
22 FEB, FRI, 1:28AM
Still awake at this hour, just had a 'lil chat with sister. Somehow I am feeling a bit heavy in my heart, for things happen that way. It can't help, its the process..
Today i wasn't very happy for what Kho said to me. I am disappointed with myself in precise. I don't think I deserve the job. Maybe I should just quit..?
And about Sally, well don't blame me for too frank Cheng and Sei Yong, I truly hate that woman.. She is wicked and very rude and very tricksy. For me she is one of the worst person I have ever met. Don't you think that I am an idiot HA-HA-, when you have the quarrel with Eric it is me who happy the most. I know how you think and what is your intention, cos I am a psychologist in fact. And if you, Sally, are reading this, let me tell you one thing, you made a very bad move to read my blog. I don't like you and I never like you because I know everything you did wasn't really from the true heart.
Today I am back to hometown, I am in my personal private bedroom typing this blog. I hope, after I wake up tomorrow, everything would be fine again..
Today i wasn't very happy for what Kho said to me. I am disappointed with myself in precise. I don't think I deserve the job. Maybe I should just quit..?
And about Sally, well don't blame me for too frank Cheng and Sei Yong, I truly hate that woman.. She is wicked and very rude and very tricksy. For me she is one of the worst person I have ever met. Don't you think that I am an idiot HA-HA-, when you have the quarrel with Eric it is me who happy the most. I know how you think and what is your intention, cos I am a psychologist in fact. And if you, Sally, are reading this, let me tell you one thing, you made a very bad move to read my blog. I don't like you and I never like you because I know everything you did wasn't really from the true heart.
Today I am back to hometown, I am in my personal private bedroom typing this blog. I hope, after I wake up tomorrow, everything would be fine again..
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
19 FEB, TUE, 6:50PM
A lot of things happened today. Colleagues were at a quarrel this morning without my presence. But more or less I got to understand what the topic was about. I don't really wanna get myself into this mess. After i get what I want I will leave anyway. Its not like I will stay here for very long time.
Today I got praised but I don't like praising. I prefer people to appreciate my quality to themselves because, I don't know, maybe I am just not the type that would like to catch attention. These days in foreign country, I learn a lot about myself. I learn to know how I react to things, what things I am dreaded and afraid of.
I notice, I grow.
I know its for the sake of myself. I hope I could be strong enough. I hope I could be independent enough. I hope I could be brave enough. I hope I could be tough enough. Of all, I wish I am lucky and blessed enough.... Cheers for the GOD.
Today I got praised but I don't like praising. I prefer people to appreciate my quality to themselves because, I don't know, maybe I am just not the type that would like to catch attention. These days in foreign country, I learn a lot about myself. I learn to know how I react to things, what things I am dreaded and afraid of.
I notice, I grow.
I know its for the sake of myself. I hope I could be strong enough. I hope I could be independent enough. I hope I could be brave enough. I hope I could be tough enough. Of all, I wish I am lucky and blessed enough.... Cheers for the GOD.
19 FEB, TUE, 1:48PM
Seems like, things gonna move in the correct path at the right pace. Well, everything happens for a good reason. I hope I can endure the next impact coming in.
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Sunday, February 17, 2008
17 FEB, SUN, 14:33PM
Went to a lunch just now for of the local clan association. It was a.. erm.. a waste of time in precise. Anyway I was able to earn around 170 for attending the event.
150 150 20 120... Oh.. I need some more.
Pathetic! Being a claymore is such a curse.
Gonna take off to the foreign land of East again, in pursue for the upcoming quest. Lets wait till the candle finishes.
What awaits me I will face, what block in the way I will slash!!
150 150 20 120... Oh.. I need some more.
Pathetic! Being a claymore is such a curse.
Gonna take off to the foreign land of East again, in pursue for the upcoming quest. Lets wait till the candle finishes.
What awaits me I will face, what block in the way I will slash!!
17 FEB, SUN, 12:09AM
Very tired, physically and spiritually. It's not something I would like to go into myself but things happened so. I might as well accept the fact. Ah..
Meaningless event just now..
Meaningless event just now..
Friday, February 15, 2008
15 FEB, FRI, 1:45PM
翻回在自己手提电脑写过的日记，有很大的感触。原来当情绪以来的时候，文笔真的好真不错哈。。当然，内容看了也很令我感慨。
“原来那个时候是这样想的”
“原来时间过了一段，思想也成长了”
又或者是“怎么自己变得越来越弱了”
不管怎样，最重要的是我写了关于自己的日记，只保留给我自己，也从来不给别人看，也没试图放上网，这就是属于我的日记本，我的思想、秘密甚至念头。
今年我已是25岁了，是成年人了。。很不想成长，但没办法。。
“原来那个时候是这样想的”
“原来时间过了一段，思想也成长了”
又或者是“怎么自己变得越来越弱了”
不管怎样，最重要的是我写了关于自己的日记，只保留给我自己，也从来不给别人看，也没试图放上网，这就是属于我的日记本，我的思想、秘密甚至念头。
今年我已是25岁了，是成年人了。。很不想成长，但没办法。。
Thursday, February 14, 2008
14 FEB, THU, 7:01PM
二月十四，情人节+老友的生辰。
已麻木了这个日子，甚至也不会妒嫉人家，也搞不清楚自己是怎么一回事，可能成仙了吧。
哈。。当然上面所讲的都是虚言。。这一届的情人节特别有感触，原因不外是自己身在国外，导致特别的挂念B。好久了，没提起B。。
不管如何，现在的心没什么刺痛，隐隐的心跳声加上温暖的冷气室，心境却异常的平静，可是心的另一面又传来阵阵的悲风。其实大概是很悲伤吧。。只是这悲伤感点绚上绝望，平和心境了吧。其实真的很想。。很想。。捎给你一句挂念的话语，无奈这坚硬的心不太可能认可剧情的发展。
很累了，此刻的我，不。。往后的我，会否会继续活在疑惑、猜疑、迷失、悲伤的剧情里啊？
走得太远了，真的很难退了，甚至是转回头，也觉得不可能。
想得太多了，思绪也已扰乱，再多的空头想，也不能代表什么。
已麻木了这个日子，甚至也不会妒嫉人家，也搞不清楚自己是怎么一回事，可能成仙了吧。
哈。。当然上面所讲的都是虚言。。这一届的情人节特别有感触，原因不外是自己身在国外，导致特别的挂念B。好久了，没提起B。。
不管如何，现在的心没什么刺痛，隐隐的心跳声加上温暖的冷气室，心境却异常的平静，可是心的另一面又传来阵阵的悲风。其实大概是很悲伤吧。。只是这悲伤感点绚上绝望，平和心境了吧。其实真的很想。。很想。。捎给你一句挂念的话语，无奈这坚硬的心不太可能认可剧情的发展。
很累了，此刻的我，不。。往后的我，会否会继续活在疑惑、猜疑、迷失、悲伤的剧情里啊？
走得太远了，真的很难退了，甚至是转回头，也觉得不可能。
想得太多了，思绪也已扰乱，再多的空头想，也不能代表什么。
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
13 FEB, WED, 6:22PM
《啰嗦vs八卦》
I always complain to brother that sisters are bitchy.. But then I looked back what I have chatted with friend...原来我也是那么啰嗦的。。啰嗦原来跟八卦是有分别的。
啰嗦是关怀，八卦是好管闲事。
Now that I realise, my mother, and my sisters, being so noisy is because they care for me. Today I learn a lesson. This is a good lesson.
I always complain to brother that sisters are bitchy.. But then I looked back what I have chatted with friend...原来我也是那么啰嗦的。。啰嗦原来跟八卦是有分别的。
啰嗦是关怀，八卦是好管闲事。
Now that I realise, my mother, and my sisters, being so noisy is because they care for me. Today I learn a lesson. This is a good lesson.
Friday, February 8, 2008
8 FEB, FRI, 4:44PM
已经是第四天了，日子过得真快，眨眼明天就要回家乡了。
他在外的这段日子终究没发生什么令人意外的事情，有点闷。每天的空闲都只是玩电脑游戏，玩后也觉得很废，讲真的，真得不知道该做些什么。。
明天是星期六，回到家也大概是晚间了，还有多少时间可以聚聚、消磨时光呢？
这段时间从来不曾忘记过B。。真的很想你，但你没能知道我对你有多在乎，可悲亦可喜。。矛盾！
他在外的这段日子终究没发生什么令人意外的事情，有点闷。每天的空闲都只是玩电脑游戏，玩后也觉得很废，讲真的，真得不知道该做些什么。。
明天是星期六，回到家也大概是晚间了，还有多少时间可以聚聚、消磨时光呢？
这段时间从来不曾忘记过B。。真的很想你，但你没能知道我对你有多在乎，可悲亦可喜。。矛盾！
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
6 FEB, WED, 7:22PM
Whoa so full. A feeling of contentment.
Just finished eating the Reunion Dinner（團圓飯）with 6 other of my family members. It was such a delicious meal. Unlike when it used to, we served on pure vegetarian dishes this year. It is not bad at all. I like veggie! Hehe.. Thank for my mom and sisters for their preparation.
So this is the second day I am here. This morning we went shopping at one of the malls in town. I bought a pair of jeans and it cost me RM110 ouch! Yea it's hurt to buy so-expensive pants, and not to mention, for the first time. This is really the most expensive outfit I have. I am normally a cheapskate person lol. Nah one in a year, plus now that I am earning, I guess I can afford it from now on.
Coming here to spend my CNY is not really bad. It is happy for we are all together.
I hope you are enjoying your time as well^^ Till then, take care.
Just finished eating the Reunion Dinner（團圓飯）with 6 other of my family members. It was such a delicious meal. Unlike when it used to, we served on pure vegetarian dishes this year. It is not bad at all. I like veggie! Hehe.. Thank for my mom and sisters for their preparation.
So this is the second day I am here. This morning we went shopping at one of the malls in town. I bought a pair of jeans and it cost me RM110 ouch! Yea it's hurt to buy so-expensive pants, and not to mention, for the first time. This is really the most expensive outfit I have. I am normally a cheapskate person lol. Nah one in a year, plus now that I am earning, I guess I can afford it from now on.
Coming here to spend my CNY is not really bad. It is happy for we are all together.
I hope you are enjoying your time as well^^ Till then, take care.
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
5 FEB, TUE, 12:52AM
明天就启程去姐姐那过年了，其实不是很令人兴奋——他喜欢在家乡过年。
其实新年给他的感觉嘛。。他很喜欢喜气洋洋的气氛，喜欢欢笑的环境，也喜欢结队去拜年。其实这些都是小孩子喜欢的，但他就是个大孩子。他一样和年纪小的有相同的话题跟兴趣，其实还真怪。
新年他们没得一起过年，因为他必须跟家人团聚，感觉很伤感，也有点的失望，原来自从那一天后，他们就变成了连理枝，分开还真痛苦啊。
昨天，他们结伴到了附近的公园见面。也许是新年的关系，人潮也减了一大半，冷清清的。他们俩牵着手，花了大半个小时走完了公园。这一别可是有好多天，一定会很想念双方吧。某歌手的歌词里唱着“情人总分分合合可是我们却越爱越深”，好妙的一句，但愿可以如此。
其实新年给他的感觉嘛。。他很喜欢喜气洋洋的气氛，喜欢欢笑的环境，也喜欢结队去拜年。其实这些都是小孩子喜欢的，但他就是个大孩子。他一样和年纪小的有相同的话题跟兴趣，其实还真怪。
新年他们没得一起过年，因为他必须跟家人团聚，感觉很伤感，也有点的失望，原来自从那一天后，他们就变成了连理枝，分开还真痛苦啊。
昨天，他们结伴到了附近的公园见面。也许是新年的关系，人潮也减了一大半，冷清清的。他们俩牵着手，花了大半个小时走完了公园。这一别可是有好多天，一定会很想念双方吧。某歌手的歌词里唱着“情人总分分合合可是我们却越爱越深”，好妙的一句，但愿可以如此。
Monday, February 4, 2008
4 FEB, MON, 11:30AM
《当他不爱你的时候》
当他不再爱你的时候
请不要在你不开心
或者是遇到麻烦而彷徨的时候去打搅他。
他那儿绝对不是你此刻应该的去处。
也许他会在接到你电话的时候
淡淡的安慰几句，
却也仅此而已。
当他不爱你的时候
请不要在他面前流泪，
不要在生病时告诉他，
他无法给予你照顾和关心，
顶多是同情一下。
所以请骄傲的你，
不要放弃本来属于你的骄傲。
当他不爱你的时候
你的爱
你的人
就会显得廉价许多。
他占了上风，
这是人的本性。
当他不爱你的时候，
请不要与他讲你的琐事，
他无暇更没有兴趣了解你，
你的生活
你的过去，
你的长处短处与他何干？
即使讲了
他也会很快忘记的，
就如他忘记你的生日，
你的地址
你的电话一样。
没有爱
于是你注定挤不进他的生命。
即使，
你要的只是一个很小很小的角落。
当他不爱你的时候
无论过去他是爱过后来忘了，
又或者是从未爱过，
当你无法成为他心里的那个人的时候，
他的心便不会记得你。
虽然他知道你深爱他，
但他宁可选择装作不知道。
当他不爱你的时候，你的爱便是他的负担。
请不要计算自己的付出，
不要希望有什么回报。
爱着不爱自己的人，
本身便是没有回报的。
要记住，
你与他之间的爱，
是单方面的，
你用心
他无心。
所以
不要计较对错，
这样会快乐些。
当他不爱你的时候
也一定要祝福他。
有了爱，
便不该有恨。
爱是美好的，
恨却丑陋。
何必让生命中美好的东西化作丑恶呢？
当他不爱你的时候
请你深深呼吸，
一生的路上，
总有那么一朵花属于你，
不是安慰你。
而是
这是生生世世早已经注定的！
This is very funny, but true haha..
当他不再爱你的时候
请不要在你不开心
或者是遇到麻烦而彷徨的时候去打搅他。
他那儿绝对不是你此刻应该的去处。
也许他会在接到你电话的时候
淡淡的安慰几句，
却也仅此而已。
当他不爱你的时候
请不要在他面前流泪，
不要在生病时告诉他，
他无法给予你照顾和关心，
顶多是同情一下。
所以请骄傲的你，
不要放弃本来属于你的骄傲。
当他不爱你的时候
你的爱
你的人
就会显得廉价许多。
他占了上风，
这是人的本性。
当他不爱你的时候，
请不要与他讲你的琐事，
他无暇更没有兴趣了解你，
你的生活
你的过去，
你的长处短处与他何干？
即使讲了
他也会很快忘记的，
就如他忘记你的生日，
你的地址
你的电话一样。
没有爱
于是你注定挤不进他的生命。
即使，
你要的只是一个很小很小的角落。
当他不爱你的时候
无论过去他是爱过后来忘了，
又或者是从未爱过，
当你无法成为他心里的那个人的时候，
他的心便不会记得你。
虽然他知道你深爱他，
但他宁可选择装作不知道。
当他不爱你的时候，你的爱便是他的负担。
请不要计算自己的付出，
不要希望有什么回报。
爱着不爱自己的人，
本身便是没有回报的。
要记住，
你与他之间的爱，
是单方面的，
你用心
他无心。
所以
不要计较对错，
这样会快乐些。
当他不爱你的时候
也一定要祝福他。
有了爱，
便不该有恨。
爱是美好的，
恨却丑陋。
何必让生命中美好的东西化作丑恶呢？
当他不爱你的时候
请你深深呼吸，
一生的路上，
总有那么一朵花属于你，
不是安慰你。
而是
这是生生世世早已经注定的！
This is very funny, but true haha..
Sunday, February 3, 2008
3 FEB, SUN, 9:25AM
Why am I so stupid? I answered something wrong again, because of self-pride again... What should I do now if I am being asked the same question again? I am so lost. I am so stupid.
I am so happy to be home but I am annoyed that I am going back to Brunei. There are many activities awaiting me, I am happy but.. I feel disappointed for some reasons..
What should I do? I have no idea..
I am so happy to be home but I am annoyed that I am going back to Brunei. There are many activities awaiting me, I am happy but.. I feel disappointed for some reasons..
What should I do? I have no idea..
Friday, February 1, 2008
1 FEB, FRI, 7:10PM
Today is a lame day for me. I went to meet a prospect in Gadong city and I just had around 15 minutes talk with him and I had done.. Its the first experience to do something like this in life. But then after that it's all fine and easy. I just need to finish with the Friday sales report and faxing those invitation to people.
Though so, I am quite down for some reasons. One of the reason is, I am worrying if I am getting my day-off for monday. What if, the worldcard do not come tomorrow, but on Monday? What should I do?
I am tired working here, the major reason is, I am still not familiar with the job. I hope I can cope up faster with I what I should learn. And hopefully I wouldn't get into trouble with someone. I am, though, very grateful for having some great friends here, thanks! Don't read my blog ok?
Continue with..
It's almost about a week since we have been together. A lot of memories had been made too. I am thankful for I am given the sparkles in darkness. Yea, it's really happening..
We are going to meet again very soon. It is a very anticipating meeting because we have planned to make a lifetime promise. The venue is under a big old tree at the corner of the town. Nobody goes there, but that's because people don't know the beauty of the night scene there. In night time there will be fireflies circling the big branches of the tree. In collaboration with the squeaking of the inserts, and the splashing of the lake water on the rock edge, they form the best orchestra in the world.
Ah.. How romantic it is and how anticipating it could be. It can't be expressed with words.. Only two true hearts can feel the enchantment from the heart-resonance effect.
I am drowning in the rain of love ah... Thank GOD:)
Though so, I am quite down for some reasons. One of the reason is, I am worrying if I am getting my day-off for monday. What if, the worldcard do not come tomorrow, but on Monday? What should I do?
I am tired working here, the major reason is, I am still not familiar with the job. I hope I can cope up faster with I what I should learn. And hopefully I wouldn't get into trouble with someone. I am, though, very grateful for having some great friends here, thanks! Don't read my blog ok?
Continue with..
It's almost about a week since we have been together. A lot of memories had been made too. I am thankful for I am given the sparkles in darkness. Yea, it's really happening..
We are going to meet again very soon. It is a very anticipating meeting because we have planned to make a lifetime promise. The venue is under a big old tree at the corner of the town. Nobody goes there, but that's because people don't know the beauty of the night scene there. In night time there will be fireflies circling the big branches of the tree. In collaboration with the squeaking of the inserts, and the splashing of the lake water on the rock edge, they form the best orchestra in the world.
Ah.. How romantic it is and how anticipating it could be. It can't be expressed with words.. Only two true hearts can feel the enchantment from the heart-resonance effect.
I am drowning in the rain of love ah... Thank GOD:)
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