Wednesday, April 30, 2008

30 APR, WED, 10:17PM

I don't think that today I can be home at 11am. I slept at 12 yesterday and today I drove for 3 hours. Actually I am tired *sigh* When can I be home?

I am said to be tame and good by our business partner. Yes, I am tame but for me its stupidity. Do I really need to do that much for this company? What would it brings to me? Job satisfaction? No. Big money? No. Experience? Unlikely? Saving? Yes. Love? No idea. Praises? I don't wanna comment about this as I am not sure if those praises were true. What else? No more.

I am losing my family. I am losing my time. I am losing my youth. I am losing my opportunity.

Yesterday night, I suddenly thought of one person. That person appeared to be my shouren. How I hope that you are still around. Where are you now? I had such a wonderful time those days, when we were so closed. But eventually, what happened I don't know, even till now. What kept us apart? Why no news from you even I took the initiative to contact you? I am in agony. Your tender touch, you held my hand, I could never ever forget about those..

I am so lonely. Desperately need someone to cure my heart, to give me strength.. But where are YOU?

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