22 JUL,TUE, 7:42PM

How do you see me?

Just now after work, and after everyone left the office, my colleague Cheng was left with me. All of a sudden he threw me a question,

"Do you still in contact with Chua?"

Well, Chua WAS one of the senior developer here. She joined for 3-4 months and then left. The reason? Well then, listen to the story.

Talking about her will make me very fuss, because frankly speaking, this is one very very irritating and my so-called "bad" person I have ever met. She came in and worked after 1 month I joined this company. We both are (she WAS) coming from the same hometown and work in foreign land together. Well, I am the kinda person who, will always try to make friend with people. Maybe people will call me flirty and sarcastic, but this is me! I do love to make people happy.

Of course towards her, I am like treating others, I smiled to her, I exposed myself "nakedly" to her (meaning to say that I was not forming myself a barrier when I was together with her). I never tend to be cautious when I deal with defenseless people (and this is what I thought), because she is the weak type of people, and she doesn't look at all beautiful. I confess! I treated her very nice!!

But less than I know that, she is actually a very repulsive and defensive type of person. Of course, I try to understand people-- your career, your family, your interest and so. I don't know how many times I had been thrown the same reply (which I initially thought she was just kidding),

"Hey, apparently we are not that close okay."

Throughout the months I had been with her, I had heard this endless times. Well NO PROBLEM!! I know she might be the repulsive type so I just let her be as she was comfortable with.

Another scenario, I joked. I joke to everybody and I joked to her of course. There was once I said,

"Chua is a very experienced programmer." which I truly meant it. She just threw me a line,

"Don't try to sabotage me."

Well again, when Chua was not even here yet, I used to stay in the office till late night to surf. When Chua was here, I had to consider her situation. So normally after around 5:30 or 6, I would initiate her with,

"Chua, wait me for another 10 minutes can?"

Her reply,

"Can you please stop using such excuses to sound like it is ME, who is actually the reason that you have to go back okay!"

Fine!!! I never said it EVER AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!

Another time, when I went out for prospects, and only returned to office at around 6:30PM, after entering the office, "someone"'s face was SO black!! And i ignored, as we were not in a good term anymore. When the 3rd person (aside of us) went out to take a cigarette, this was what she said,

"MY STOMACH IS HURTING LIKE HELL (BECAUSE OF YOU, definitely she meant this, because this line was shot at me!)"

And I just told her, i didn't bring out the key, it was always on my table.

"How should I know that?"

HAHAHAHA!! Good development!! I raised my voice and we started to argue for like few lines, then she kept quiet. Of course, I was a victor in the argument. Who does she think she is to be in position to quarrel with me? I don't quarrel easily with people, but when I have my point, you can never win me.

*sigh*

Pathetic woman. I tell you, from the day you started to show me rudeness, I had never respected you, for whatever reason, or whatever skills you are holding. You are nothing for me but a pathetic soul I met in my journey of life!! GO ON!! Go and lead your life the way you want, I can only tell you one thing,

"Being not beautiful is the wrong of no one, and I won't give a damn insult to you, BUT to be UGLY in your heart, you could NEVER get my respect!"

So Cheng, do you still doubt why I "dislike" her that much? Imagine if you WERE me!! Where would you stand? How would you feel? What will you do!

Really angry when, someone blows the red charcoal... -.-"