SAT, 31 DEC 2011, 3:55PM

This is is about to end -- 2011

Many things have happened this year, and one of the most wonderful things that has happened to me is to have met you.

We known each other in March 2011 this year. Thanks D, you have been a bless in my life.

Apart from that, I have also achieved greater height in my career. I am now on the track in my job, and it is really a bless.

Then, my twin sisters have gone abroad to pursue their masters degree. Which is a bless too.

We have moved into new house, bought a new car.

I have gone traveling to Taiwan, Singapore and Phuket. Not to mention KL, Brunei, Kuching, Sibu, Bintulu, Limbang, Lawas and KK.

I have performed in a concert in KK.

I have also forgotten about the previous persons in life.

In short, a lot of things have happened, good and bad.

My resolution in the new year is: I wish everything to be even better in year 2012. I also wish to have more progress in my career. I wish my business would go on smoothly. And I wish I will be together with you, by any chance..

:) Bless you my family and you. You are the persons I love the most in life this period of time.

Happy 2011 to go and 2012 to come.

FRI, 16 DEC '11, 10:49PM

How would I know this is the feeling of love

Love is something that is very terrifying. It gives you utmost joy, as well and sorrow

You get jealous for very small things, but you also get unimaginatively happy for very little things

I have seen a lot of love stories, and have also heard a lot of people suffering in it. Yet, I never knew why people are so vulnerable with love

Until today, I know.

Hey dear. Though we couldn't be together, though I might not be your preferred candidate BUT, I am happy that I have met you. I wish you all the happiness and successes in your future.

I will support you through thick and thin, and this is my commitments to you, as well as my promises.

You have left me for more than half a month now, and I am still missing you like nuts.

Thinking about this, I am really a nut. Can't help but keep on recalling the things that you have shared, the stories that you have gone through, and time that we have spent together, and the parting that we have experienced.

You might not feel as much as me but it is all okay. Because this is my love for you.

Good night dear.

MON, 12 DEC '11, 8:09PM

Everytime you mentioned about him, my heart would have piercing pains..

If he is that lousy, how would you still love him

Saying missing him in front of me, do you know how much pressure you are putting on me?

MON, 12 DEC '11, 10:05AM

My heart sinks hard.. I am hurt by love, my first love.. Hope I have enough courage to walk down the road.

I really do love you, so much... But everytime I am dealing with you, I feel uncertain. I do not dare to trust.. Because I am so afraid to be hurt once more..

Dear, I think it is really a good bye. I have almost accepted it. Bless you. Love you.

SUN, 4 DEC '11, 11:59PM

You have left me for the 2nd day.. and duration of about 28 hours. I am still missing you, and couldn't get you out of my mind even for a couple of minutes. I am so sensitive to my message ringtone, and it would strike my nerve everytime my phone rings... All because I thought it will be you.

I really enjoyed the night before you left. I was very grateful that, you gave the night to me. I was really honoured because I know I have some weight in your heart. I feel pleasured to be able to be your privileged someone.. You might not love me, but all that matters is, at this period of time, you are the one I love the most.

Time will pass, and my feeling towards you will fade (But I hope it will not, towards you). I want to record it all down.. about the night when we were at Esplanade.. we took cigarettes, wine, went to Bistro for dinner, went to pub for your first beer, bought a set of clothes to you. I am doing the best I can, to enlighten your life. Because it is painful for me to know that, you are living differently from me, though not too bad. But my wish is to give people what I am having, in my affordability.

I want to convey that, my feeling towards you is not just temporary. I was angry at you because you didn't see me and didn't feel my feeling. I did not trust you, which is because I am afraid that, you approach me for some other reasons, perhaps for benefits.

But that doesn't matter, like what I told me to myself, what matters most is the feeling I am having right here and right now.

It is so good, to be able to love, eventhough you are no longer around.. Wish fate could bring us together once again. Sincerely wishing about that!