You have left me for the 2nd day.. and duration of about 28 hours. I am still missing you, and couldn't get you out of my mind even for a couple of minutes. I am so sensitive to my message ringtone, and it would strike my nerve everytime my phone rings... All because I thought it will be you.
I really enjoyed the night before you left. I was very grateful that, you gave the night to me. I was really honoured because I know I have some weight in your heart. I feel pleasured to be able to be your privileged someone.. You might not love me, but all that matters is, at this period of time, you are the one I love the most.
Time will pass, and my feeling towards you will fade (But I hope it will not, towards you). I want to record it all down.. about the night when we were at Esplanade.. we took cigarettes, wine, went to Bistro for dinner, went to pub for your first beer, bought a set of clothes to you. I am doing the best I can, to enlighten your life. Because it is painful for me to know that, you are living differently from me, though not too bad. But my wish is to give people what I am having, in my affordability.
I want to convey that, my feeling towards you is not just temporary. I was angry at you because you didn't see me and didn't feel my feeling. I did not trust you, which is because I am afraid that, you approach me for some other reasons, perhaps for benefits.
But that doesn't matter, like what I told me to myself, what matters most is the feeling I am having right here and right now.
It is so good, to be able to love, eventhough you are no longer around.. Wish fate could bring us together once again. Sincerely wishing about that!
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