This year had been a very special.
#1 Have finally caught in a relationship but only for 45 days, first time in life.
#2 Have many friends getting married, at least 10 of them.
#3 Have taken the most flights and hotel stays in life.
#4 Have dropped my iPhone 4 in taxi seat, and bought an iPhone 4S
#5 Have taken personal loan of a small but great fund
#6 Have quitted FMCG and joined O&G!
#7 Have traveled to Beijing China
#8 Have messed up the relationship with MOC
#9 Have had the first experience of getting a China lady accompany
#10 Have made 2 great friends of life, whom I respect so much, Alan and Alastair
Maybe more to come.. hahaa.... But it is always about item #1. Cheers.
Monday, December 31, 2012
Sunday, December 30, 2012
Friday, December 28, 2012
28 DEC '12, FRI, 2:21PM
执子之手，与子偕老。
写着写着朋友的婚礼司仪词，不禁的感伤起来了，也许是因为最近发生的点点滴滴。
心好沉重，可是我相信一切都是最好的安排。
心好疼，可是还是要忍受。
28 DEC '12, FRI, 1:29AM
Still heartache with whatsapps..
I have to learn not to call you intimately, not to care for you too much, and start not to text you so frequent.
Because I think my messages can no longer bring you happiness, but only fuzziness.
And I guess it won't be suitable for me to call you for the time being... Should I move on with life without you..?
Sigh..
I have to learn not to call you intimately, not to care for you too much, and start not to text you so frequent.
Because I think my messages can no longer bring you happiness, but only fuzziness.
And I guess it won't be suitable for me to call you for the time being... Should I move on with life without you..?
Sigh..
Wednesday, December 26, 2012
26 DEC '12, WED, 8:10PM
今天下起了嚎啕大雨，衬托了我的心情
我的心感到十分沉重，原来一直以来我所“以为”的，应该改都不是真的
感谢上天慈悲，给了我雨天好让我可以在雨中拭去面水。
我的心感到十分沉重，原来一直以来我所“以为”的，应该改都不是真的
感谢上天慈悲，给了我雨天好让我可以在雨中拭去面水。
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
25 DEC '12, TUE, 7:28PM
At 10:20pm on 24th December 2012, my 36 days of relationship ended.
I feel quite peaceful, and ready to accept, because I have expected the result. But one thing I am sure about human being is, they are unexplainable.
I will be strong, like I always be. Jia you Kang Kang. Rao~!! haha..
I feel quite peaceful, and ready to accept, because I have expected the result. But one thing I am sure about human being is, they are unexplainable.
I will be strong, like I always be. Jia you Kang Kang. Rao~!! haha..
25 DEC '12, TUE, 7:19PM
D, sorry for making your life miserable.
I do love you, but everything is good for you I will just give it to you, as long as I can do it. And for now, I am freeing you okay.
I see that you are happier, and I am happier too.
But there is one request from me... if you no longer are giving me any chance in life, perhaps you should just forget about this blog k. This is my treasure chest, only be given access to people who can accept me in all..
I do still love you, but I don't want you to be in suffer again.. and have mixed feeling.
Haha.. "Rao~" I miss it. I love you my dear. Bye.
I do love you, but everything is good for you I will just give it to you, as long as I can do it. And for now, I am freeing you okay.
I see that you are happier, and I am happier too.
But there is one request from me... if you no longer are giving me any chance in life, perhaps you should just forget about this blog k. This is my treasure chest, only be given access to people who can accept me in all..
I do still love you, but I don't want you to be in suffer again.. and have mixed feeling.
Haha.. "Rao~" I miss it. I love you my dear. Bye.
Saturday, December 22, 2012
22 DEC '12, SAT, 2:02PM
D, I dunno whether you would read this.. I am sorry for making you think so much.. and given you insucurity..
Don't worry, after this incident i know how much am i loving you.. I am so heartache.. please get through with your feeling.. else..
Don't worry, after this incident i know how much am i loving you.. I am so heartache.. please get through with your feeling.. else..
22 DEC '12, SAT, 1:31PM
I'm so stupid haha.....
I don't know what to do myself, hey, do you read this?
What I can hope for is, you can get rid of that feeling. But I know it's not easy..
I am really really sorry, would you accept my apology?
I love you baby, and now for the second time when I am with you, I'm feeling heartache.
The first time was when I was down, you LC to me. That time it was really so demoralizing.. Though I know that you were joking, but I also suspect if that was your true self. I got over in few hours..
The second time is now, when I told you about my concern in long distance love, it messed you up, and it messed me up.. This is really my fault, really. I can't even smile now..
D, can we sort this out? I want to love you. I really do. I have been imagining about the future already- how we could end up in a place, our house, our room, and the sweet memories..
Do you know my problems now? I am actually a person who thinks too much, complicated! And secondly, I tend to utter what I think to other ppl, which makes people think like "a thousand pierces" in their heart. My sister told me this. But there is only one condition that I could do such thing to these people.. They will be people I love the most. Cos I want to be as honest as possible to them.
My sis Sonnie, when we were in quarrel once, she scolded me "你讲的话真的很有刺！"
Now I understand.. Though it is mild but its full of destructive power.. I'm wrong again D..
Do you want to know what are our "first's"?
You confessed to me, and I accepted. First time in life.
Talk on phone to a person almost every morning, noon and evening. First time in life.
I open up my eyes everyday, thinking of handphone and to drop you the first morning message if possible. First time in life.
We looked at each other in their eyes so dreamily, for the first time in my life.
I have somebody who uttered the real "I love you" to me, in my life. My first time in life.
We watched movie together, holding hands. First time in my life.
Someone do fetching for me, and I was holding his hand. First time in life.
Feeling such a heartache with your current situation, mixed feeling plus messed up mind. It's the first time in my life.
I'm sorry D. I do love you, really I'm. The heartache tells me so.. Please forgive me..
I don't know what to do myself, hey, do you read this?
What I can hope for is, you can get rid of that feeling. But I know it's not easy..
I am really really sorry, would you accept my apology?
I love you baby, and now for the second time when I am with you, I'm feeling heartache.
The first time was when I was down, you LC to me. That time it was really so demoralizing.. Though I know that you were joking, but I also suspect if that was your true self. I got over in few hours..
The second time is now, when I told you about my concern in long distance love, it messed you up, and it messed me up.. This is really my fault, really. I can't even smile now..
D, can we sort this out? I want to love you. I really do. I have been imagining about the future already- how we could end up in a place, our house, our room, and the sweet memories..
Do you know my problems now? I am actually a person who thinks too much, complicated! And secondly, I tend to utter what I think to other ppl, which makes people think like "a thousand pierces" in their heart. My sister told me this. But there is only one condition that I could do such thing to these people.. They will be people I love the most. Cos I want to be as honest as possible to them.
My sis Sonnie, when we were in quarrel once, she scolded me "你讲的话真的很有刺！"
Now I understand.. Though it is mild but its full of destructive power.. I'm wrong again D..
Do you want to know what are our "first's"?
You confessed to me, and I accepted. First time in life.
Talk on phone to a person almost every morning, noon and evening. First time in life.
I open up my eyes everyday, thinking of handphone and to drop you the first morning message if possible. First time in life.
We looked at each other in their eyes so dreamily, for the first time in my life.
I have somebody who uttered the real "I love you" to me, in my life. My first time in life.
We watched movie together, holding hands. First time in my life.
Someone do fetching for me, and I was holding his hand. First time in life.
Feeling such a heartache with your current situation, mixed feeling plus messed up mind. It's the first time in my life.
I'm sorry D. I do love you, really I'm. The heartache tells me so.. Please forgive me..
Monday, December 17, 2012
17 DEC '12, MON, 3:43PM
It is the 30th day of us to be together, and we have met once. We have yet to have any fight or quarrel yet, and day by day, our love towards each others grow (Well at least at my side).
I have become a little bit laid back, and only want to keep in touch with you, my family and few of my friends. In fact, I wish to share our stories with many people. I will let people know that I am in love in time, bit by bit but mildly. This is a commitment from me that, I am loving this person.
My first visit in life to you was on the 8th December, and I was on business trip to KK. And we have met for 3 days in a row. Eventhough I have spent a bit of money, but i find it worthwhile, at least, you are the person that I have been waiting in my whole life.
I have become a little bit laid back, and only want to keep in touch with you, my family and few of my friends. In fact, I wish to share our stories with many people. I will let people know that I am in love in time, bit by bit but mildly. This is a commitment from me that, I am loving this person.
My first visit in life to you was on the 8th December, and I was on business trip to KK. And we have met for 3 days in a row. Eventhough I have spent a bit of money, but i find it worthwhile, at least, you are the person that I have been waiting in my whole life.
Wednesday, December 5, 2012
5 DEC '12, WED, 8:18PM
It is so heartache to listen to your condition of life. What should I do? The only way is, I need to be rich.. very rich...
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
4 DEC '12, TUE, 6:42PM
Big thing has happened today... but it doesn't affect me much. Well, I don't really bother about others' businesses..
My boss is leaving the company, splitting up with his father in business. I was not really moved, but I feel a little bit sad. He was the one who hired me into the company, teaching me this and that. And now he is about to leave, what would happen to me? I think I am gonna be very lonely... haha..
After coming back, I did the laundry, hanging washed clothes (since morning). I vacuumed the floor of my room and partial of living room. Then I prepared for dinner, while at the same time, I made call to you.
I just love the way you answer my call, very funny.. and I am never bored listening to the first word from you. It is really nice..
Hey, we are about to meet in another 2 days, are you anticipating for that?
To be frank, I am. I have been thinking these days, how would I react when I first see you later. Would I be very shy? Or would I treat you like a long-lost friend? Or just normal?
And, would you like my look from close distance? Would you mind if I am not having good looking face? Or would you mind if I have a little bad breath?
Haha.. I am anticipating for all of this. I don't care how would it turn out to be. Maybe after the meeting, you won't be getting in touch with me, but right here and right now I want to say: You are someone who has gotten all my attentions these days.
I wish we can last together, and I wish to take care of you, give you "xing fu", until your last day.. Though it sounds a bit sad, but I don't want you to have any regrets in life.
That's me, bao bei
My boss is leaving the company, splitting up with his father in business. I was not really moved, but I feel a little bit sad. He was the one who hired me into the company, teaching me this and that. And now he is about to leave, what would happen to me? I think I am gonna be very lonely... haha..
After coming back, I did the laundry, hanging washed clothes (since morning). I vacuumed the floor of my room and partial of living room. Then I prepared for dinner, while at the same time, I made call to you.
I just love the way you answer my call, very funny.. and I am never bored listening to the first word from you. It is really nice..
Hey, we are about to meet in another 2 days, are you anticipating for that?
To be frank, I am. I have been thinking these days, how would I react when I first see you later. Would I be very shy? Or would I treat you like a long-lost friend? Or just normal?
And, would you like my look from close distance? Would you mind if I am not having good looking face? Or would you mind if I have a little bad breath?
Haha.. I am anticipating for all of this. I don't care how would it turn out to be. Maybe after the meeting, you won't be getting in touch with me, but right here and right now I want to say: You are someone who has gotten all my attentions these days.
I wish we can last together, and I wish to take care of you, give you "xing fu", until your last day.. Though it sounds a bit sad, but I don't want you to have any regrets in life.
That's me, bao bei
Monday, December 3, 2012
2 DEC '12, MON, 1:34AM
I think I should start to make entries for my life on today onwards again: )
Little would I know, this would be the year that I finally got myself a lover.. Little did I know that you would be from such a far place from me. Little would I even believe that you could be a chinese..
Haha.. to be frank, all of the persons whom I have fallen in love with, are mostly non-chinese..
18th November 2012, this day was the most memorable day for my buddy, and it could also be the most memorable day for me for my wholelife ^^
Dear, sorry to tell you that at this point of time, I really am not feeling as strong feeling as you might be feeling right now.. Sorry for that. It doesn't mean that I do not love you, but it is hard for me to love someone who is so far away, yet I have never met.
We will know when we meet one day, and I will surely know whether that is the feeling which I have been seeking for.
I do not have much confidence in love because what I have seen are either "thirst for sex" case or "vulnerable love" with 3rd party presence in no time. Please forgive me, I have fallen in love hard for twice - The first one was a classmate whom I have known for 12 years now, and I can say that I have totally gotten rid of him in my life (well we are real friends now). The second is a malay, whom I have been treating him so dearly. This person is the one who has created the insecurity and lack-of-confidence in LOVE.
All these years, I have fallen to many people, no lesser than 30 i think, but I have never been with any of them. LOVE for me, is so distant away, I am very afraid of the commitment which I have to put in LOVE relationship (from what I have seen around me). I love my family very much since then, and my urge for LOVE become lesser and lesser, to a minimal level.
Then... you appeared.
You are very sweet with words, but to be frank, up till now, I am still suspecting your love feeling which you have conveyed to me through written words and verbal conversation. I can't feel much, but I am trying hard to get the clues of what love is all about.
One day, you will see this thread, MAYBE. Which is why today, I want to write down what I am feeling towards you here. Nobody knows the presence of this blog, or even if they do, they do not know it belongs to me. My life is all here, when you read them, you will know what a person I am, mostly, if not all.
Dear, I want to love you, but do give me some time. I believe I will be able to find out the answer very soon. I just hope that I will be able to love a person whom I think "you" love me so much. Do you, at this point of time?
And it is almost 1:47am already, and I want to sleep. I will continue writing more in this blog to let you know my feeling with you.
Last things, there are simply too many secrets I am holding with me right now, which I am not telling anyone on this earth at all. Some know a little, but nobody knows all. If you are the trusted one, you might know all. I am sorry dear for letting you feeling a bit of heartache. But this is me. I am a complicated person, though I might not seem to be one from outside.
Good night and love you.
Little would I know, this would be the year that I finally got myself a lover.. Little did I know that you would be from such a far place from me. Little would I even believe that you could be a chinese..
Haha.. to be frank, all of the persons whom I have fallen in love with, are mostly non-chinese..
18th November 2012, this day was the most memorable day for my buddy, and it could also be the most memorable day for me for my wholelife ^^
Dear, sorry to tell you that at this point of time, I really am not feeling as strong feeling as you might be feeling right now.. Sorry for that. It doesn't mean that I do not love you, but it is hard for me to love someone who is so far away, yet I have never met.
We will know when we meet one day, and I will surely know whether that is the feeling which I have been seeking for.
I do not have much confidence in love because what I have seen are either "thirst for sex" case or "vulnerable love" with 3rd party presence in no time. Please forgive me, I have fallen in love hard for twice - The first one was a classmate whom I have known for 12 years now, and I can say that I have totally gotten rid of him in my life (well we are real friends now). The second is a malay, whom I have been treating him so dearly. This person is the one who has created the insecurity and lack-of-confidence in LOVE.
All these years, I have fallen to many people, no lesser than 30 i think, but I have never been with any of them. LOVE for me, is so distant away, I am very afraid of the commitment which I have to put in LOVE relationship (from what I have seen around me). I love my family very much since then, and my urge for LOVE become lesser and lesser, to a minimal level.
Then... you appeared.
You are very sweet with words, but to be frank, up till now, I am still suspecting your love feeling which you have conveyed to me through written words and verbal conversation. I can't feel much, but I am trying hard to get the clues of what love is all about.
One day, you will see this thread, MAYBE. Which is why today, I want to write down what I am feeling towards you here. Nobody knows the presence of this blog, or even if they do, they do not know it belongs to me. My life is all here, when you read them, you will know what a person I am, mostly, if not all.
Dear, I want to love you, but do give me some time. I believe I will be able to find out the answer very soon. I just hope that I will be able to love a person whom I think "you" love me so much. Do you, at this point of time?
And it is almost 1:47am already, and I want to sleep. I will continue writing more in this blog to let you know my feeling with you.
Last things, there are simply too many secrets I am holding with me right now, which I am not telling anyone on this earth at all. Some know a little, but nobody knows all. If you are the trusted one, you might know all. I am sorry dear for letting you feeling a bit of heartache. But this is me. I am a complicated person, though I might not seem to be one from outside.
Good night and love you.
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