30TH SEP '13, MON, 10:49AM

I think I am a pathetic creature... Only with your words of,

"I have something to tell you, but I am not ready yet"

I have moved.

I can't help it, but I am gonna think for thee worst case scenario. I mustn't be positive on this, else I am gonna got hurt..

But, I felt really shiawase when you asked me to call you in 2 consecutive days. I feel like THE LEAST, I am still somebody in your heart.

I will control my feeling to you.. I will try not to take too much hopes.

Love you. Dein.

15TH SEP '13, SUN, M03 PM

Nordin, it has been quite sometime since I last saw you. I hope you are doing fine. I wish I can give up on you soon.. I'm starting to delete your memories with me. I always believe, everything happens for a reason. Ciao good night dear, love you.

12TH SEP '13, THU, PM

Nordin, I felt so heartache when I knew that you have accepted others proposal to be your bf. And you didn't accept mine.

I kinda accept the fact that you won't like the kind like me and with that, I'm drawing myself out of the game. I love you too much, more than I can imagine, hence I might not be contacting you for quite some time, in order to forget you.

I would like to let you know that I would really love to stay in touch with you. I would like to have the chance to love you, shower you with my love, taking care of you, having intimacy with you- IF ONLY I have the chance.. 

You are a wonderful incident which appears in my life. Besides blaming God for not being fair to me for not having you, I really love the way God met both of us. I feel happy and blessed when I'm with you. I'm feeling myself to be complete everytime I'm with you. I feel myself like crying when you are just beside me. That's the level of my love to you.

Nordin, I'm offshore for few days. And I wish I can get rid of you in my life, for a short period of time. I need to heal my broken-heart-to-pieces heart. And I need to re-love somebody, if I can do that.

There are simply too many things I have had in mine. There are just too many thoughts I have had on you every single minutes. Right now (despite what I'm saying before), I really hope you will have affection on me. Till then, love you.

8 SEP '13, MON, 9:01AM

诺丁，我爱你爱得太深，也因此爱得好辛苦。

我好想大喊，也好想大哭……无奈我已经忘记了流泪的感觉。

我知道我的年纪不符合你，长相也不好看，只有一颗很爱你的心。可是我知道对你来说，那不足够……你追求的是一时的快感以及年轻的肌肤。

诺丁，我决定要暂时放弃你，让你到外面奔跑，直到有一天当你伤痕累累的时候，再也不想放逐自己的时候，我愿意包容你的一切，做你的终生伴侣。

因为，我是那么的爱你。

1 SEP '13. SUB, 13:51PM

When you told me you are dating another man and you are in hotel. My heart has broken to pieces. Shattered around.

My body was immediately drained out of energy. I could barely lift my fingers.

My heart is so painful that I don't have words to describe.

If only you know how much do I love you, only then you might know how strong is the damage you have casted upon me.

I'm really tired, exhausted, disappointed a little... I wish to cry out loud, but my dignity does not allow me too..

Dear GOD, what have you arranged for me...

Will my broken wings be strong enough to carry me thru the bloody ocean?