I have stopped to contact you for the second days. And I really miss you, and those moments we were chatting happily, and when we had video call.
I don't know if I am ready to let you go Nordin.
Do you know why do I stop to be in contact with you?
.. For me, I feel like I am not appreciated.. The way you chatted with me was too basic? Should I use the word?
I feel like you find my presence a nuisance and unnecessary at times. And when you almost never initiate to greet me or chat with me, made me even more firm with my assumption.
May be my presence in your life, in the first place, is already a mistake. May be I should not have treated you as a bro from the first time we chat, resulting I am having too much of feeling to a "bro".
You never call me dear bro any longer, nor "muah" or "love you".. which you used to. Our distance has drawn so far, and you couldn't even notice that.
Nordin, you are a fantasy in my life. Maybe you are just a dream, and I wish I have never met you.
This morning I dreamed of you. In my dream you were a hotel attendant, in a nowhere place. I was the guest, and we met, we laughed and we were so closed. I was happy, until the moment I realised I was on my bed.
I really did not feel like waking up anymore..
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