Reminiscence - 10.11.13

Today I got the chance to be with you.

When I asked you out, you hesitated. But you agreed. You know Din, I want to give you everything I can afford.

I asked if you wanna have lunch, and you said you have to ask your mom. And your mom asked you to lunch outside. And so, I fetched you from your house, waiting anticipatively inside the car, imagining what would you be wearing.

Ah, white-green t-shirt with orange shorts with a flip-flop. And a blue hat. How cute ^^

You never stared at me inside the car, and I couldn't help myself to keep staring at you when I was driving. I knew you noticed, and may be you are shy to look at me.

We went to have late lunch at Station One upon arriving to Bintang. And beforehand, I bought us both entries to the restroom. I was trying my best to walk side-by-side with you. I wanted to let you know that despite of your race, I will always be standing by you. I wouldn't be shy; Ah well, maybe you were the one who was shy to walk side-by-side to me.

I order chicken rice with iced coffee, while you ordered lamb chop rice with iced chocolate. We sat inside the restaurant facing each other, as if we were a cute and unmatched couple. And thinking about that now makes me want to cry.

You didn't know how to use the cutlery, and I demonstrated to you over the table. And do you know that, you were so cute when you were trying to cut that chop. When you tasted a bit of my chicken soup, I was also very surprised and warm. For me, that's a boundary that I have made beyond together with you.

And you mentioned about watching Insidious 2, I anxiously but steadily reached for my phone and checked online for the ticket. 1750 Hours, last day of showing in a small room. You have agreed to watch with me, and you chose the row of seat at the back-most, center. You didn't know, I have already started to fantasize sitting beside you, leaning side by side, while holding your hands in the theatre.

We joked and chatted over the lunch, and went into the mall for some walks. Eventually I suggested to leave Bintang to somewhere else, and you agreed to that..

We went to Ming Cafe for a couples of drink. You ordered Vanilla Milk Shake and Chocolate Milk Shake. I ordered Paulaner and 100 plus. I took 2 cigarettes. We chatted for two hours. We talked on a lot of bold topics, and I found myself indulged in the atmosphere.

How on earth can I get more of this kinda chances to hang out with you.

We left Ming around 1715 Hours, and headed for Canada Hill. You went out to the hill side first, while waiting for me who went to restroom. I approached you from your back, and snapped pictures of you starring into the skies and city. And now that I recall, it was such a "shiawase" moment to be able to watch you from your back.

You requested my help to take some pictures, and also to take pictures together. I snapped professionally, wouldn't want to disappoint you. The pictures of us together, are so sweet. I think to myself. I wouldn't expect anyone to have the same feeling as I have, but I am contented, that moment.

After leaving Canada Hill, we returned to Bintang for Insidious 2. We were being cornered by people from our both sides. It was cold, you said that. Din, if there wasn't anyone, do you know I might hug you in my warm arms? Again, imaginations. We were sitting side by side, leaning against each other some times. I really like those feelings.

And so I know it is nearing the end of the day. I brought you for the dinner of the day nearby your house, and awkwardly sent you off from my car.

I gave you a green checker shirt that day. I wish you like that, truthfully. But I don't think you do.

Din, I have never felt so much in love before. I really hope you can be a part of my life. But you have never come across the idea.

For today, I am writing it down. My memory is deteriorating, and I am afraid to lose the tiniest bit of important details of you.

It is all you.